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Readers Share Their Near-Death Experiences
In early 1988, the British neuropsychiatrist Dr. Peter Fenwick, an expert on near-death experiences, appeared in the BBC documentary “Glimpses of Death” to comment on the near-death visions of people who had briefly died, or nearly died, and then come back to life. After it aired, thousands of people wrote him letters describing similar stories. Dr. Fenwick sent them a lengthy questionnaire to categorize their accounts. He presented his findings in “The Truth in the Light: An Investigation of Over 300 Near-Death Experiences,” the book that he wrote with his wife, Elizabeth Fenwick, published in 1995.
After Dr. Fenwick died on Nov. 22 at age 89, his obituary brought a wave of comments from readers about their own near-death experiences. A selection, condensed and edited, is below.
“I once knew a teacher who told me about his experience with his mother when she died. A few seconds before she left this world, she suddenly said very clearly: ‘It is so beautiful!’ And then she passed away. I’m not a religious person and I have no idea if there’s a life after this present one. But that story has stayed with me ever since I heard it in 1991.” — Michel Forest, Montreal, Quebec
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“In 1981, I was working in an offshore oil rig when a 1,000-pound metal pipe fell on my thigh, snapped my femur and severed my femoral artery. I was bleeding to death. After a quick medevac flight to the emergency room, I lost so much blood that my blood pressure dropped and my heart stopped. I flatlined.
At that moment, I found myself hovering above myself on the hospital table. No pain. I could see my disfigured leg and felt sorry for my body. Then a beautiful bright light came through a dark tunnel. It was stunning and as ‘real’ as any memory I have. But then I realized I had to go back and instantly awoke in massive pain. I had never heard about near-death experiences and was afraid to tell this story due to ridicule. But it happened. It was as ‘real’ as life is. I don’t fear death now. It’s just another level of consciousness.” — Jeff Sears, Norwalk, Conn.
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“Dec. 3, 2003, I had a sudden, severe pancreatitis attack. The pain was extreme. With my wife and daughter out for the weekend, I had to drive myself to the emergency room five minutes away. I passed out as I entered the emergency area. Lying on the gurney, I saw ‘the light’ at the ceiling and knew I was either dead or near death. The feeling was extraordinarily blissful; I knew that it would be a loving transition to a new world. I had to decide — stay or go. I was not done playing with my children, so I stayed. I looked up and there was my 16-year-old daughter.” — Elliot Hoffman, San Francisco
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“I had a near-death experience when I was in the hospital with peritonitis in my late 20s, about 50 years ago. I was surrounded by the most seductive feeling of peace and calm I’ve ever experienced — light and airy. I saw my grandfather (who looked very young), who said to me, ‘What are you doing here?’ I said, ‘You know, Grandpa.’ He said, ‘You’re not supposed to be here now.’ I remember making tight fists to keep me in my body because I was floating upward. Since that day, I have had no fear of dying.” — Emily Danies, Tucson, Ariz.
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“I am now 78. When I was 22, I had a near-death experience. I went into anaphylactic shock from a severe allergic reaction to penicillin. I didn’t go through a tunnel, see a light or any dead relatives. Instead, I had an out-of-body experience. I was floating above my body in the emergency room, watching the physicians and staff trying to save me. It was the most peaceful I have ever felt. When I recounted the experience to my physician, who had been present, he expressed disbelief until I told him how many were working on me, where he was standing, what they said and what they did to save me.” — Marion Novack, Bronx, N.Y.
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“I am not a religious person. I do have a background in science. And I believe in what Dr. Fenwick uncovered. In 1991, I held my grandfather as he passed away from kidney failure. He was totally cogent as we said our goodbyes. I felt his weak body go totally limp, but then, seconds later, he sat straight up; his face got calm, and his eyes were bright as he stared straight ahead, focused on seemingly nothing. Then he uttered the word “Mamma!” He said it in his original Italian language, something I had not heard him use in decades. He passed with a smile on his face.” — Marianne Pontillo, Philadelphia
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“I lost my wife in 1989 during an asthma attack in an ambulance on the way to the emergency department. I watched her slip away within a minute or two. They were unable to revive her. A few months earlier, she had woken up early one morning from a startling dream. She told me that she had been in a dark tunnel heading toward a bright, white light, when her deceased father appeared. He said to her, “Go back, Susan; it is not your time yet.” As she was being lifted onto the ambulance, her last words to me were that she wasn’t ‘going to make it.’ I have lived with her words since that night.” — Marvin Wilkenfeld, Newton, Mass.
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“I remember thinking: ‘This is it. I’m dying.’ I distinctly remember hoping my younger brother would get my pixies, a couple of little ceramic decorations that he had always wanted but I’d never let him even touch. Then, I had a sudden thought that I had a choice to make: If I died then, I’d go straight to heaven, but if I chose to live, there were no guarantees. I remember deciding, strongly, that I wanted to live. When I hit the ground, my skull fractured.” — Judith Hanson Hume, Dallas
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Rebecca Halleck and Amisha Padnani contributed research.
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Identity first, or person first? Guidelines this series follows when writing about autism and mental health
Autism and mental health are complex subjects. Here are some guidelines we use when choosing how to write about them.
Person first? Identity first? It depends.
When we’re writing about a person’s experience with a mental health condition, we’ll likely use “person-first language.” For example, we will refer to someone as “living with schizophrenia” or “having a diagnosis of schizophrenia,” instead of describing that person as “a schizophrenic.”
The same goes for writing about a disability, which is a mental or physical condition that significantly affects the ability to carry out at least one life activity. An illness or disability is something that a person has, not the essence of who they are.
When it comes to autism, many people with the neurodevelopmental condition prefer what’s called “identity-first language”: describing someone as “an autistic person,” for example, rather than “a person with autism.” Advocates for this language say that autism is an essential part of their identity, and isn’t something that can or should be separated from an individual either in real life or on the page.
Research has found that a majority of autistic people in English-speaking countries prefer identity-first language. Most of the time, that’s what you’ll read in these stories. There are also people in the autism community who prefer person-first language, so there will be times when that’s the more appropriate choice. And of course, when we directly quote someone, we will use the exact words they said or wrote.
In general, when an individual makes clear how they want to be described, we will honor that person’s preferences.
Many autistic people live with mental health conditions. Autism isn’t one of them.
Autism is a neurodevelopmental condition that affects social communication and sensory processing. It’s not a mental health disorder, and isn’t something that can be cured.
Studies have found that up to 80% of adults diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder also have at least one additional mental health condition such as depression or anxiety. These conditions are distinct from autism, and often respond to treatment interventions.
When reporting on suicide, there is some information we leave out on purpose.
Multiple studies have found that certain descriptors and details, particularly those connected to the specific method by which a person died, may have a harmful effect on people struggling with thoughts of suicide. For that reason, our stories don’t describe the methods people use to kill themselves, even when we have learned that information during our reporting.
Language evolves and we will too.
Our stories are based on the best information we have available at the time we publish. When we learn new information that changes our understanding of a subject, the words we use will change as well.
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Kratom was linked to 6 L.A. deaths and banned in the county. But the supplement’s actual health risks remain a mystery
Recently, the Los Angeles County Public Health Department reported it had linked the deaths of six L.A. County residents over the last spring and summer to the use of kratom, a widely available but unregulated supplement sold as a remedy for all sorts of health issues.
The deaths prompted public health officials to announce Nov. 7 that they would red-tag and pull from store shelves all products containing either kratom or the synthetic alkaloid 7-Hydroxymitragynine, also known as 7-OH, which is derived from kratom. Both are currently unregulated and not approved for use in the United States or the state of California as a drug product, dietary supplement or an approved food additive, according to the U.S. Food and Drug Administration.
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10:16 a.m. Nov. 20, 2025A previous version of this article misspelled Dee Macaluso’s last name as Mascalusco.
Unsurprisingly, business owners who sell kratom feel that the health department has overstepped, going too far without understanding how the supplement is helping many L.A. residents. The deaths, they say, are not necessarily due to kratom products, but to interactions with other substances.
Perhaps more important are the benefits that kratom users and some experts claim the drug provides. Many say the problem is with 7-OH — a highly concentrated, synthetic version of natural kratom that is subject to adulteration and fraudulent marketing — and that banning the sale of all kratom products could create an even more dangerous underground market of both kratom and 7-OH.
Indeed, many kratom sellers and users would welcome better regulation, so that they could continue to use the affordable, widely available substance as a way to treat physical pain and mental health issues with more confidence in the efficacy and safety of the products they are selling and buying.
During the months of April and July, a total of six L.A. County adults between the ages of 19 and 39 died with kratom and 7-OH in their bodies, along with other substances including alcohol, prescription sedatives and muscle relaxers, and cocaine.
In the medical examiner’s reports, the cause of death for five of the deceased was listed as a consequence of “mixed drug effects”; the sixth was listed as being caused by an overdose of cocaine.
The Times spoke with three different toxicologists to review these coroner’s reports and get a better understanding of what role kratom or 7-OH may have had in the deaths.
What the experts told The Times is that while toxicologists have an understanding of the possible effect that kratom alone can have on the body, the picture becomes unclear when other drugs are introduced.
Kratom is an herbal extract made from the leaves of Mitragyna speciosa, a tree native to Southeast Asia. It is sold in smoke shops and online in a variety of forms including powders, pills and liquid extracts.
At low doses, kratom causes a stimulant effect with users reporting an uptick in energy. At high doses it creates a sedative effect, said Donna Papsun, a forensic toxicologist with NMS Labs.
Researchers say a majority of kratom users consume the plant to relieve pain. In some cases, people report using it effectively to treat opioid dependence. Others use it to alleviate mental health challenges such as anxiety and depression.
In the last few years, a synthetic version of kratom refined to its psychoactive compound 7-Hydroxymitragynine, or 7-OH, has grown in popularity. The much more potent form of the largely unregulated drug has become a concern for public health officials and advocates.
But toxicologists say there isn’t enough research to provide a comprehensive understanding of what concentrations of kratom or 7-OH can be acutely toxic in the body when alone.
It’s likely they can also cause dangerous reactions when combined with other drugs that could amplify their effects, experts said, but the lack of research means doctors just don’t know what they are. That’s where the most concerning risks lie, said Craig Smollin, medical director of the San Francisco division of the California Poison Control System.
In cases where kratom and 7-OH are found in the bodies of a recent accidental death, typically toxicologists have found evidence of polysubstance use — when two or more drugs are taken together either intentionally or unintentionally.
“I don’t claim to have investigated all the reports about kratom deaths, but I haven’t seen too many reports of single-drug ingestions of kratom causing death,” Smollin said.
And while there’s an effective method to test for the quantity of kratom in the body, there isn’t a similarly accurate test for 7-OH. Current tests can only say whether or not it is present. In all six L.A. County deaths, it was.
But, Papsun notes, when kratom is metabolized in the body, part of the breakdown includes 7-OH, which means it will likely show up in medical exams whenever kratom does.
Toxicology labs face significant challenges when trying to quickly develop tests for emerging drugs like 7-OH for use in post-mortem medical examinations, Papsun said. “Adding something to a scope of testing is not easy from a forensic point of view because you have to develop it, validate the test, have available commercial material and it has to be scientifically rigorous because these results can end up in court,” Papsun said.
A further challenge to testing for 7-OH, specifically, is that the compound is “incredibly unstable,” she said. It can be detected in the body at the time of death but by the time the sample is collected and tested, the compound may have started to break down already, leading to inaccurate results.
Robert Powers, a forensic toxicologist at the University of New Haven, agreed that it was difficult to tell whether kratom and 7-OH played a direct role in the L.A. County deaths. “Most of the problems that arise with this drug are in combination with other respiratory depressant type drugs: opiates, benzodiazepines, alcohol,” he said, though he added that the deaths are “not an easy picture” to understand.
That’s why, he said, the L.A. County health department’s move to pull these products off the shelves makes sense. “I think it’s reasonable to recognize that in these cases, kratom could have indeed played a contributory role. And I understand the interest in trying to limit the potential effects of this drug in those mixed cases, so I understand why people would be interested in controlling this drug.”
Smollin, the San Francisco poison center director, concurred, pointing out how much the county still might not know about kratom and 7-OH.
That lack of information trickles down to consumers, who often rely on guidance from local, state and federal agencies about the risks of products like kratom and 7-OH.
Indeed, Dee Macaluso, 74, said she’s had to take it upon herself to seek out other sources of guidance, and experiment with different amounts of daily dosage to alleviate her symptoms of fatigue and trouble breathing from years of chronic lung illnesses.
When she learned of the county’s decision, “it scared me to death that they were going to pull” kratom products. “I told my husband, I don’t know what I’m going to do if I don’t have it and then I won’t be able to get out of bed, or paint or do the little bit that I can do,” she said.
Macaluso was an actor and comedian who in her 60s lived in Park City, Utah, but more recently moved to L.A. when her health declined due to pneumonia that progressed to debilitating infections in her lungs.
Macaluso used to have an active lifestyle, but the damage to her lungs made it so she could barely go up and down the stairs of her Utah home without feeling winded. She also felt the elevation in Park City was straining her health — it’s one reason she chose to move to Los Angeles, which is mostly low-altitude.
She saw a number of specialists, but none offered any options that helped alleviate her symptoms. Then, she stumbled on a documentary that highlighted the benefits of kratom in regards to chronic pain and mental health. She decided to try it.
“I didn’t use it very often, but when I did I found that it helped so many of my issues,” Macaluso said.
She described the effect as a boost of energy that in turn gave her the motivation and strength to get out of bed. “This was much more of a subtle feeling of just relief from being in a state of someone who is unwell and tired,” Macaluso said. “I loved it and I still use it.”
As her illness has progressed, Macaluso has continued to rely on kratom whenever she knows she’ll have a long day or has to attend a function and be sociable.
“It made me feel like my old self — smart mouth, funny and quick. I was a stand-up comic, I did all these things and I was becoming this old tired lady that got winded going up a few stairs and it pissed me off,” she said.
Macaluso doesn’t advocate for 7-OH but she doesn’t want kratom to be banned; she’d rather it be regulated and available to the public.
“I think the government should give us the leeway to educate ourselves,” she said. ”There’s always going to be people that misuse it but I don’t think that those of us who are using it responsibly and getting benefit from it should be penalized.”
Business owners like Abdullah Mamun, who started the company Authentic Kratom 12 years ago, agree with Macaluso’s perspective.
Authentic Kratom began as an e-commerce business based in Canoga Park, and has since grown into three brick-and-mortar locations in Canoga Park, Woodland Hills and Hollywood.
Mamun believes 7-OH is a real risk, and that L.A. County should focus its efforts there. A blanket ban on all kratom products, however, is counterproductive, he said. First of all, based on what his customers have told him over the past decade or so, he believes “kratom doesn’t cure you, but it gives people the relief that they’re looking for and the ability to manage their pain.” Second, red-tagging kratom products would directly affect his Authentic Kratom and the livelihood of his seven full-time employees.
And he welcomes regulation on kratom products.
“We want them to be properly labeled for customers because people should know what they’re putting in their body,” he said.
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Beloved eagle, a school mascot, electrocuted on power lines above Bay Area elementary school
MILPITAS, Calif. — As scores of students swarmed out of their Milpitas elementary school on a recent afternoon, a lone bald eagle perched high above them in a redwood tree — only occasionally looking down on the after-school ruckus, training his eyes on the grassy hills along the western horizon.
The week before, his mate was electrocuted on nearby power lines operated by PG&E.
Kevin Slavin, principal of Curtner Elementary School, said the eagles in that nest are so well-known and beloved here that they were made the school’s mascots and the “whole ethos of the school has been tied around them” since they arrived in 2017.
What exactly happened to send Hope the eagle off the pair’s nest in the dark of night and into the live wires on the night of Nov. 3 is not known (although there’s some scandalous speculation it involved a mysterious, “interloper” female).
According to a spokesperson from PG&E, an outage occurred in the area at around 9 p.m. Line workers later discovered it was caused by the adult eagle.
The death, sadly, is not atypical for large raptors, such as bald and golden eagles.
According to a 2014 analysis of bird deaths across the U.S., electrocution on power lines is a significant cause of bird mortality. Every year, as many as 11.6 million birds are fried on the wires that juice our televisions, HVAC systems and blow driers, the authors estimated. The birds die when two body parts — a wing, foot or beak — come in contact with two wires, or when they touch a wire and ground source, sending a fatal current of electricity through the animal’s body.
Because of their massive size, eagles and other raptors are at more risk. The wingspan of an adult bald eagle ranges from 5.5 to 8 feet across; it’s roughly the same for a golden eagle.
An eagle couple in Milpitas, before the female was electrocuted when coming into contact with high-power electrical lines earlier this month.
(Douglas Gillard)
According to a report from the U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service’s National Forensics Laboratory, which analyzed 417 electrocuted raptors from 13 species between 2000 and 2015, nearly 80 percent were bald or golden eagles.
Krysta Rogers, senior environmental scientist at the California Department of Fish and Wildlife Investigations Laboratory, examined the dead eagle.
She found small burns on Hope’s left foot pad and the back of her right leg. She also had singed feathers on both sides of her body, but especially on the right, where Rogers said the wing looked particularly damaged. She said most birds are electrocuted on utility poles, but Hope was electrocuted “mid-span,” where the wires dip between the poles.
Melissa Subbotin, a spokesperson for PG&E, said the poles and wires near where the birds nested had been adapted with coverings and other safety features to make them safe for raptors.
However, it appears the bird may have touched two wires mid-span. Subbotin said the utility company spaces lines at least 5 feet apart — a precaution it and other utility companies take to minimize raptor deaths.
“Since 2002, PG&E has made about 42,990 existing power poles and towers bird-safe,” Subbotin said. The company has also retrofitted about 41,500 power poles in areas where bird have been injured or killed.
In addition, she said, in 2024, the company replaced nearly 11,000 poles in designated “Raptor Concentration Zones” and built them to avian-safe construction guidelines.
Doug Gillard, an amateur photographer and professor of anatomy and physiology at Life Chiropractic College West in Hayward, who has followed the Milpitas eagles for years, said while there is safety equipment near the school, it does not extend into the nearby neighborhood, where Hope was killed.
Gillard said a photographer who lives in the neighborhood took a photo of the eagle hanging from the wires that Gillard has seen. The Times was unable to access the photo.
Not far from the school is a marshy wetland, where ducks, geese and migrating birds come to rest and relax, a smorgasbord for a pair of eagles and their young. There are also fish in a nearby lake.
Gillard said one of the nearby water bodies is stocked with trout, and that late fall is fishing season for the eagles. He said an army of photographers is currently hanging around the pond hoping to catch a snapshot of the father eagle catching a fish.
Rogers said the bird was healthy. She had body fat, good muscle tone and two small feathers in her gut — presumably the remnants of a recent meal. She also had an enlarged ovary and visible oviduct — an avian fallopian tube — suggesting she was getting ready for breeding, which typically happens in January or February.
Slavin, the principal, said that a day or two before the mother’s death, he saw the couple preparing their nest, and saw a young female show up. “It was a very tense situation among the eagles,” he said.
Gillard, the photographer, said the “girlfriend” has black feathers on her head and in her tail, suggesting she isn’t quite five years old.
Gillard and Slavin say they’ve heard from residents there may have been some altercation between the mom and the interloper that sent Hope off the nest and into the wires that night.
The young female remains at the scene, and is not only being “tolerated” by the father, but occasionally accompanies him on his fishing trips, Gillard said.
Eagles tend to mate for life, but if one dies, the other will look for a new mate, Gillard said. If the female eagle sticks around, it will be the dad’s third partner.
Photographers can identify the father, who neighbors just call “Dad,” by the damaged flexor tendon on his right claw, which makes it appear as if he is “flipping the bird” when he flies by.
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