Buddies of Fern Feather this week remembered the Vermonter as a healer, a plant and animal lover, a heat one who danced by means of the world constructing connections and neighborhood.

“You’d by no means even see her with out a smile on her face,” mentioned Michele Wildflower, of Westmore, who first met Feather greater than a decade in the past. “You could not be along with her and never really feel good.”

However as they grappled with information that Feather, a transgender girl from Hinesburg, had been fatally stabbed in Morristown on Tuesday, they have been joined by 1000’s of LGBTQ+ Vermonters throughout the state who have been making an attempt to course of the 29-year-old’s violent loss of life.

Leaders of LGBTQ+ advocacy organizations within the state — together with the Satisfaction Middle of Vermont, a neighborhood middle in Burlington, and Outright Vermont, which is geared towards LGBTQ+ youths — mentioned they have been offering sources for anybody grieving the loss, whether or not they knew Feather personally or not.

“When violence like this occurs, it could trigger a variety of unease and a variety of worry and anxiousness,” mentioned Mike Bensel, government director of the Satisfaction Middle. “For trans and non-binary Vermonters, it is instances like these that folks actually need to return collectively and rally round and present their solidarity and help for this.”

Seth Brunell, 43, pleaded not responsible on Thursday to a second-degree homicide cost in Feather’s loss of life. Court docket paperwork point out that the 2 had been spending time collectively after Feather picked up Brunell as a hitchhiker days earlier. 

In accordance with a police affidavit, Brunell claimed Feather had “attacked him” after making a sexual advance. Brunell confirmed no accidents nor “indications of an altercation,” police mentioned.

Prosecutors haven’t mentioned whether or not they consider Feather’s gender was an element within the killing. Lamoille County State’s Legal professional ​​Todd Shove on Friday mentioned legislation enforcement had recognized further folks to interview and that his workplace would “transfer ahead appropriately” if it discovered proof to prosecute a hate crime. 

Wildflower recalled first assembly Feather greater than a decade in the past on the Northeast Kingdom Music Competition and being instantly taken by Feather’s real heat. 

Feather confirmed all life varieties love, together with the littlest creatures like bugs, Wildflower mentioned. 

That prolonged to strangers. Damarah Barr-Smith, of Plainfield, recollects the primary phrases Feather shared after they met at a bonfire: “You are too fairly to be standing alone.”

“Every part about Fern simply makes you are feeling so particular,” Barr-Smith mentioned, recalling how Feather ​​ additionally rescued birds and saved canines and fish.

Barr-Smith mentioned anybody Feather met — even when only for a second — could be handed a rock, a crystal, a hug, a kiss on the cheek. Feather was “continuously like this giver of affection,” she mentioned, recalling her buddy’s love of greenery that matched their chosen title. 

“1000’s of crops have been hanging off the ceiling and down the steps, crops that I’ve tried to make stay for years, and have been simply thriving in (Feather’s) home, in the midst of the woods in Vermont, in the midst of winter,” she mentioned.

When Wildflower first heard information of Feather’s loss of life, she instantly considered the LGBTQ+ neighborhood. Feather had written a public Fb submit in late March about figuring out as a trans girl.

“She simply got here out,” Wildflower mentioned. “What is the message to our trans youth that it is advisable remember as a result of folks hate you?”

(Buddies mentioned Feather used a mixture of pronouns over their life and since saying their transition publicly, and will have been utilizing a number of pronouns on the time of their loss of life.)

Cassidy Sargent, of Burlington, recalled assembly Feather for the primary time at a bonfire. Sargent was having a tough day, and Feather made her really feel heard and cared for, Sargent mentioned. 

“We ended up instantly bonding to the extent the place we type of closed ourselves off and simply acquired actually deep into life,” Sargent mentioned. “She appeared to only have this actually vibrant, loving, open-arms power, which I actually appreciated.”

Like Wildflower, Sargent fears that Feather was focused because of their gender id. 

“Vermont is absolutely painted as this stunning, holistic, loving surroundings,” Sargent mentioned, however “there are lots of people in our state who wrestle to see goodness in folks like Fern, and that makes me actually unhappy.”

Bensel, of the Satisfaction Middle, mentioned Feather’s homicide referred to as to thoughts the loss of life of Amos Beede, a transgender man who was murdered in Burlington in 2016.  

They mentioned Feather’s stabbing, mixed with transphobic rhetoric by state legislatures, Fox Information and Vermont’s GOP, have created a scary surroundings for trans and nonbinary people.

The “intersection of violence and id” is an ongoing situation in Vermont, they mentioned. Regardless of Vermont’s popularity as a progressive state, “we now have a protracted solution to go to create a state the place this sort of violence would not occur,” they mentioned. 

Nationally, 2021 was the deadliest yr for transgender and gender non-conforming folks on report, in accordance with Time, which cited a Human Rights Marketing campaign report indicating not less than 50 trans and gender non-conforming folks have been killed, a possible undercount.

One other examine by Williams Institute at UCLA Faculty of Regulation discovered that transgender folks have been greater than 4 instances extra doubtless than their cisgender friends to be victims of violent crime.

In Vermont, Bensel sees a pointy divide between communities which might be both affirming or unsafe for LGBTQ+ people.

“There’s undoubtedly some progressive pockets,” they mentioned, “and there is communities which might be, you understand, rolling up their sleeves and investing within the work to ensure that their communities, their colleges, their help networks are affirming to trans and non-binary of us. After which there’s communities which might be very a lot unsafe.”

The Satisfaction Middle runs a SafeSpace Anti-Violence Program which features a help line that folks can contact by cellphone (802-863-0003) or on-line chat. Bensel mentioned the “majority” of people that attain out to make use of this system are trans or gender-non-conforming.

Whereas the response to Feather’s loss of life has been one in every of fast outrage, Dana Kaplan, the chief director of Outright Vermont, believes the group’s youth members will proceed to debate it within the weeks after vigils have ended.

Outright is facilitating a digital and in-person group to satisfy with LGBTQ+ teenagers on Friday and a gathering with youth organizers throughout the state this weekend. 

Outright additionally has been listening to from gay-straight alliance educators throughout the state searching for recommendation on find out how to educate about Feather’s loss of life. Kaplan sees it as “actually essential that we not cover the fact of what occurred to younger of us.”

But, regardless of the worry and anxiousness of the second, Kaplan mentioned, “we’re not going to again down from doing the issues that we all know matter. We’re going to stand by the work that we do. We will stand by the celebration and pleasure of being in neighborhood with friends. We’re gonna have a good time our identities and that’s simply as essential.”

A number of vigils have been deliberate to honor Feather, together with:

• In Essex Junction’s 5 Corners, Rep. Rey Garofano, D-Essex, together with native organizers, has deliberate a rally on Saturday from 11:30 a.m.-1 p.m., in help of the transgender neighborhood throughout the state. 
• The Satisfaction Middle is planning to carry a vigil on Saturday afternoon at 2 p.m. in Morrisville’s Oxbow Park.
• Fern’s mates are organizing a public celebration for the night time of Friday, April 22 — what could be Feather’s thirtieth birthday — at Orlando’s in Burlington.