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Jaylon Johnson finally emerged with a contract extension from the Chicago Bears in March.

The Bears asked him to come to Halas Hall to announce the $76 million deal with $47.8 million guaranteed, the second-highest amount ever given to a defensive back. Johnson was willing, but only if the team commissioned a private jet to fly him and his loved ones from his hometown of Fresno, Calif. The Bears agreed.

At the news conference, nine of his people — including father John Johnson Sr., mother Carmella Warren Johnson, brother, housemate and trainer Johnny Johnson, agent Chris Ellison and girlfriend Janessa McFadden — accompanied Johnson. He walked in wearing a long-sleeved Prada shirt with mother-of-pearl buttons and hand-crafted fringes on the shoulders. The red-and-black pattern looked like it came from an exotic butterfly.

Johnson had prepared an opening statement. Then he amended it. “My spirit was like, you can’t do that without talking about what you went through,” he says. “You have to put it all out there.”

He started the news conference by thanking God, then said abruptly, “I went to therapy last season for sexual addiction.”

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Nobody knew he would say that, not even the people he brought with him. And few could understand why.

This wasn’t a contract signing as much as a metamorphosis.


For a while, Johnson was defined by what he didn’t have — interceptions, a new contract and self-control.

In early 2022, the Bears hired a new general manager and head coach. Johnson, a second-round pick in 2020, didn’t show up for voluntary offseason workouts. When mandatory workouts began, he had been demoted to second string. He regained his starting spot quickly, but some hard feelings lingered, especially while Johnson acclimated to coach Matt Eberflus’ push for more intensity.

Since his rookie training camp, Johnson has not been shy about questioning or challenging authority, and that has not changed over time.

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“Clearly, I was one of the top guys on the team, so with that should have come a sense of respect,” Johnson says. “I shouldn’t have had to prove myself in everything. Don’t play with me. We’re grown men. I didn’t feel valued from the coaching staff.”

Takeaways are priority No. 1 in Eberflus’ defense, and given that Johnson had no interceptions and missed six games with injuries in 2022, “they were probably questioning what I could do,” he says.

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Johnson had just one interception over 39 games in his first three NFL seasons, but part of his problem may have been that he’s so sticky in man-to-man that quarterbacks avoided throwing to the players he covered. “He’s got elite quickness,” Eberflus says. “He has elite ability to stay attached to receivers. And he’s uber-intelligent.”

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The Bears’ faith in him remained in question. Johnson was hoping for an offseason contract extension. There were talks, but the two parties remained far from a middle ground. They agreed to see how Johnson played in the early season and revisit it.

In the spring of 2023, Johnson was baptized. The church has always been a part of his life. Years ago, he had “Proverbs 16:3” tattooed on his arm: “Commit your actions to the Lord, and your plans will succeed.”

He didn’t need to be baptized, but he wanted to be.

“I didn’t want to keep being what I say is a lukewarm Christian, reading Bible verses but living your life a different way,” he says. “I wanted to make a commitment and an outward expression of my faith to the world.”

He also needed to redirect himself. He had been unfaithful to Janessa, his girlfriend since 2021. Again. And he was watching a lot of pornography.

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Johnson says he lost his virginity at 16 and then adopted the mindset that more is better. In high school, he was a four-star recruit. In college at Utah, he was all-conference. Things came easily for the big man on campus.

“Playing a manly sport drew girls to me,” he says. “It wasn’t hard to go to a party, get a number and have sex. I got lost in a sense of who I was created to be versus whatever felt good to me.”

Johnson graduated in two and a half years, and the Bears drafted him in the second round in 2020. As a pro, he was afforded an unhealthy combination of time and celebrity.

“I could just have fun, sleep with whomever I wanted,” he says. “Anytime there was nothing going on, it would revert to girls. It got to the point where I wasn’t able to shake it.”

He justified it. He wasn’t doing anything different from a lot of people like him.

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He downplayed it. Nobody was getting hurt, right?

By the summer of 2023, Johnson started to see more clearly. He wouldn’t want his 4-year-old daughter, Zaveah, to end up with someone who behaved like him. McFadden was special, he believed, and he didn’t want to lose her. He was ashamed.

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Finally, he admitted to himself and to McFadden that he had a problem. He spent an hour or two in therapy almost every week during the season. It was, however, a struggle. He had to tear down walls, talk about his childhood and accept blame.

What he was going through had nothing to do with football.

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And everything to do with football.


On a sunny fourth quarter at Soldier Field, Johnson watched the eyes of Las Vegas Raiders quarterback Brian Hoyer. Johnson hung back, waiting for wide receiver Davante Adams to break. As Hoyer cocked his arm, Johnson jumped the route, stepped in front of Adams and came up with the interception — his first in 28 games. He brought it back 39 yards for a touchdown, then intercepted another pass five plays later.


Jaylon Johnson’s interception return for a touchdown against the Raiders in October 2023 helped send him on his way to the Pro Bowl. (Todd Rosenberg / Getty Images)

The Bears reopened negotiations, but their respective opinions of his value still differed.

“Their offers were very disrespectfully low,” Johnson says. “The players they compared me to, there’s no way you can compare me to these players. One of them was (Minnesota’s) Byron Murphy.”

Johnson was frustrated, and not just because of his contract situation. The Bears lost seven of their first nine games after a 3-14 record the year before.

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“We kept losing, losing, losing,” he says. “And then they weren’t showing interest in bringing me back. I wasn’t happy with the culture and how we were losing, so I asked for a trade.”

The Bears declined. Then in late October, as the trade deadline approached, he asked a second time. Chicago gave his agent, Ellison, permission to shop Johnson but said they would accept nothing less than a first-round pick in return, according to Johnson. Ellison says seven or eight teams were interested. According to Johnson, the Bills, 49ers, Raiders and Steelers were among them. The Bills and 49ers tried hard to strike a deal but ultimately were not willing to meet the Bears’ demands.

So the trade deadline passed, contract talks were tabled and Johnson committed to making the Bears realize he was worth what he thought he was.

“I didn’t want to talk about it anymore,” he says. “I didn’t want to think about it anymore. It was, let’s just go play football.”

Johnson finished the season with four interceptions — he dropped two more potential picks — 10 passes defensed and one touchdown allowed. He was voted second-team All-Pro and a Pro Bowler and was given Pro Football Focus’s highest grade among cornerbacks.

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On March 5, Chicago placed the non-exclusive franchise tag on Johnson. Two days later, the sides agreed on terms for his four-year extension.

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They say money like his is life-changing, but it’s not like he bought a chateau on a cliff or a gold chain heavy enough to prevent a hot air balloon from taking off.

Teammates tease him because he still drives a Honda Accord.

“Hey, it’s sporty, clean, all black,” he says. “It gets me to and from where I need to go.”

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The money is, however, affirmation. And so are words.

“Jaylon has exhibited everything we want in a Chicago Bear,” says Eberflus, who plans to use Johnson in new ways this season. “It’s how we draw it up in terms of him loving football, being a very talented player and having the desire to try to master his craft. He’s a really good teammate. And he’s one of ours.”

Falcons receiver Darnell Mooney, Johnson’s former teammate in Chicago, calls him the best cornerback in the NFL. “He always gives me problems,” Mooney says. “Every time I line up against him, I’ve got to be focused.”

At only 25, Johnson has become the elder statesman of the Bears’ secondary and a cornerstone of a young team. Johnson says his relationship with the coaching staff has improved over time. He’s pleased to be a Bear and invigorated by the challenge of living up to his contract, as well as earning the next one, which he will have a chance to sign before his 30th birthday.

Befitting his new status, Johnson has a new uniform number: 1. Johnson switched from 33 back to the number he wore in high school and college when it became available after the trade of quarterback Justin Fields. He says he loves the new vibe.

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Bears cornerback Jaylon Johnson and girlfriend Janessa McFadden are expecting a child. (Courtesy of Jaylon Johnson)

Therapy did what he hoped it would, enabling him to regain control and enhancing his perspective. “I learned that giving yourself away should be sacred to someone you are going to spend the rest of your life with,” he says. Going public with his addiction may benefit others with similar problems, he believes, so he has no regrets.

His relationship with McFadden is in a good place, a really good place. Last month, he proposed. She said yes. He is convinced that her honesty and support are making him better. He loves the way she cares for his daughter. And in September, they are expecting a child.

He also is expecting more interceptions — at least five this season.

As far as Johnson could tell, his previous interception failures weren’t because of anything he did wrong. It was as if his karma was out of whack.

And then 2023 happened.

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“He had a nice glow to him walking around last year,” says Mooney, who considers Johnson a brother. “He just had some lovely energy every time you were around him.”

Johnson says he wasn’t doing anything different on the field. “What changed was God gave me the opportunities,” he says.

He thinks he knows why.

“When you have your mind and spirit on a certain level, the physical takes over and doors start to open up,” he says. “As I was trying to improve who I am as a man, all of a sudden, things I was hoping for happened.”

(Illustration: John Bradford / The Athletic; photo: Quinn Harris / Getty Images)

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‘Prayer’ (1985) by Galway Kinnell

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Whatever happens. Whatever
what is is is what
I want. Only that. But that.

Galway Kinnell in 1970. Photo by LaVerne Harrell Clark, © 1970 Arizona Board of Regents. Courtesy of the University of Arizona Poetry Center

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“I typically say Kinnell’s words at the start of my day, as I’m pedaling a traffic-laden path to my office,” says Major Jackson, 57, the author of six books of poetry, including “Razzle Dazzle” (2023). “The poem encourages a calm acceptance of the day’s events but also wants us to embrace the misapprehension and oblivion of life, to avoid probing too deeply for answers to inscrutable questions. I admire what Kinnell does with only 14 words; the repetition of ‘what,’ ‘that’ and ‘is’ would seem to limit the poem’s sentiment but, paradoxically, the poem opens widely to contain all manner of human experience. The three ‘is’es in the middle line give it a symmetry that makes its message feel part of a natural order, and even more convincing. Thanks to the skillful punctuation, pauses and staccato rhythm, a tonal quality of interior reflection emerges. Much like a haiku, it continues after its last words, lingering like the last note played on a piano that slowly fades.”

“Just as I was entering young adulthood, probably slow to claim romantic feelings, a girlfriend copied out a poem by Pablo Neruda and slipped it into an envelope with red lipstick kisses all over it. In turn, I recited this poem. It took me the remainder of that winter to memorize its lines,” says Jackson. “The poem captures the pitch of longing that defines love at its most intense. The speaker in Shakespeare’s most famous sonnet believes the poem creates the beloved, ‘So long as men can breathe or eyes can see, / So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.’ (Sonnet 18). In Rilke’s expressive declarations of yearning, the beloved remains elusive. Wherever the speaker looks or travels, she marks his world by her absence. I find this deeply moving.”

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Lucille Clifton in 1995. Afro American Newspapers/Gado/Getty Images

“Clifton faced many obstacles, including cancer, a kidney transplant and the loss of her husband and two of her children. Through it all, she crafted a long career as a pre-eminent American poet,” says Jackson. “Her poem ‘won’t you celebrate with me’ is a war cry, an invitation to share in her victories against life’s persistent challenges. The poem is meaningful to all who have had to stare down death in a hospital or had to bereave the passing of close relations. But, even for those who have yet to mourn life’s vicissitudes, the poem is instructive in cultivating resilience and a persevering attitude. I keep coming back to the image of the speaker’s hands and the spirit of steadying oneself in the face of unspeakable storms. She asks in a perfectly attuned gorgeously metrical line, ‘what did i see to be except myself?’”

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‘Sonnet 94’ (1609) by William Shakespeare

They that have power to hurt and will do none,
That do not do the thing they most do show,
Who, moving others, are themselves as stone,
Unmovèd, cold, and to temptation slow,
They rightly do inherit heaven’s graces
And husband nature’s riches from expense;
They are the lords and owners of their faces,
Others but stewards of their excellence.
The summer’s flower is to the summer sweet,
Though to itself it only live and die;
But if that flower with base infection meet,
The basest weed outbraves his dignity.
For sweetest things turn sourest by their deeds;
Lilies that fester smell far worse than weeds.

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“It’s one of the moments of Western consciousness,” says Frederick Seidel, 90, the author of more than a dozen collections of poetry, including “So What” (2024). “Shakespeare knows and says what he knows.”

“It trombones magnificent, unbearable sorrow,” says Seidel.

“It’s smartass and bitter and bright,” says Seidel.

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Classic and Contemporary Literature From France, Japan, India, the U.K. and Brazil

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According to the writer Leïla Slimani, 44, the author of ‘The Country of Others’ (2020).

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‘Essais de Montaigne’ (‘Essays of Montaigne,’ 1580)

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“France is a country of nuance with a love of conversation and freedom and an aversion to fanaticism. It’s also a country built on reflexive subjectivity. Montaigne reveals all that, writing, ‘I am myself the matter of my book.’”

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‘La Carte et le Territoire’ (‘The Map and the Territory,’ 2010) by Michel Houellebecq

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“Houellebecq describes France as a museum, where landscape turns into décor and where rural areas are emptying out. He shows the gap between the Parisian elite and the rest of the population, which he paints as aging and disoriented by modernity. It’s a melancholic and yet ironic novel about a disenchanted nation.”

JAPAN

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According to the writer Yoko Ogawa, 64, the author of ‘The Memory Police’ (1994).

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‘Man’yoshu’ (late eighth century)

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“‘Man’yoshu,’ the oldest extant collection of Japanese poetry, reflects a diversity of voices — from emperors to commoners. They bow their heads to the majesty of nature, weep at the loss of loved ones and find pathos in death. The pages pulse with the vitality of successive generations.”

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‘Tenohira no Shosetsu’ (‘Palm-of-the-Hand Stories,’ 1923-72) by Yasunari Kawabata

“The essence of Japanese literature might lie in brevity: waka [a classical 31-syllable poetry form], haiku and short stories. There’s a tradition of cherishing words that seem to well up from the depths of the heart, imbued with warmth. Kawabata, too, exudes more charm in his short stories — especially these very short ‘palm-of-the-hand’ stories — than in his full-length novels. Good and evil, beauty and ugliness, love and hate — everything is contained in these modest worlds.”

INDIA

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According to Aatish Taseer, 45, a T contributing writer and the author of ‘Stranger to History: A Son’s Journey Through Islamic Lands’ (2009).

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‘The Kumarasambhava’ (‘The Birth of Kumara,’ circa fifth century) by Kalidasa

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“This is an epic poem by the greatest of the classical Sanskrit poets and dramatists. The gods are in a pickle. They’re being tormented by a monster, but Shiva, their natural protector, is deep in meditation and cannot be disturbed. Kama, the god of love, armed with his flower bow, is sent down from the heavens to waken Shiva. Never a wise idea! The great god, in his fury, opens his third eye and incinerates Kama. But then, paradoxically, the death of the god of love engenders one of the greatest love stories ever told. In the final canto, Shiva and his wife, the goddess Parvati, have the most electrifying sex for days on end — and, 15 centuries on, in our now censorious time, it still leaves one agog at the sensual wonder that was India.”

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‘The Complex’ (2026) by Karan Mahajan

“This state-of-the-nation novel, which was published just last month, captures the squalor and malice of Indian family life. Delhi is both my and Mahajan’s hometown and, in this sprawling homage to India’s capital, we see it on the eve of the economic liberalization of the 1990s, as the old socialist city gives way to a megalopolis of ambition, greed and political cynicism.”

THE UNITED KINGDOM

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According to the writer Tessa Hadley, 70, the author of ‘The London Train’ (2011).

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‘Jane Eyre’ (1847) by Charlotte Brontë

“Written almost 200 years ago, it remains an insight into our collective soul — or at least its female part. Somewhere at the heart of us there’s a small girl in a wintry room, curled up in the window seat with a book, watching the lashing rain on the window glass: ‘There was no possibility of taking a walk that day. …’ Jane’s solemnity, her outraged sense of justice, her trials to come, the wild weather outside, her longing for something better, for love in her future: All this speaks, perhaps problematically, to something buried in the foundations of our idea of ourselves.”

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‘All That Man Is’ (2016) by David Szalay

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“Though he isn’t quite completely British (he’s part Canadian, part Hungarian), Szalay is brilliant at catching certain aspects of British men — aspects that haven’t been written about for a while, now updated for a new era. Funny, exquisitely observed and terrifying, this novel reminds us, too, how absolutely our fate and our identity as a nation belong with the rest of Europe.”

BRAZIL

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According to the writer and critic Noemi Jaffe, 64, the author of ‘What Are the Blind Men Dreaming?’ (2016).

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‘Memórias Póstumas de Brás Cubas’ (‘The Posthumous Memoirs of Brás Cubas,’ 1881) by Machado de Assis

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“Not only is it experimental in style — very short chapters mixed with long ones; different points of view; narrated by a corpse; metalinguistic — but it also introduces an extremely ironic view of the rising bourgeoisie in Rio de Janeiro at the time, revealing the hypocrisy of slave owners, the falsehood of love affairs and the only true reason for all social relationships: convenience and personal interest. After almost 150 years, it’s still modern, both formally and, unfortunately, also in content.”

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‘Onde Pastam os Minotauros’ (‘Where Minotaurs Graze,’ 2023) by Joca Reiners Terron

“The two main characters — Cão and Crente — along with some of their colleagues, plan to escape and set fire to the slaughterhouse where they work under exploitative conditions. The men develop sympathy for the animals they kill, and one of them becomes a sort of philosopher, revealing the sheer nonsense of existence and the injustices of society in the deepest parts of Brazil.”

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The Myth of Meeting Oneself

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“This is evident in Virgil’s ‘Aeneid’ (circa 30-19 B.C.) when Aeneas witnesses his own heroic actions depicted in murals of the Trojan War in Juno’s temple, and again in Miguel de Cervantes’s ‘Don Quixote’ (1605-15) when Quixote enters a printer’s shop and finds a book that has been published with fake details about his quest even as he’s living it,” says Ben Okri, 67, the author of “The Famished Road” (1991) and “Madame Sosostris and the Festival for the Brokenhearted” (2025). “In both stories, individuals throw themselves into the world and think they encounter objects, personae, obstacles and antagonists, but what they actually encounter is themselves. In our time, where our actions meet us in the echo chamber of social media, the process is magnified and swifter. Now a deed doesn’t even have to take place for it to enter the realm of reality.”

The Myth of Utopia

“I’ve always had trouble with the idea of utopia, feeling it derives its energy more from what it wishes to dismantle than what it wishes to enact,” says the T writer at large Aatish Taseer, 45, the author of “Stranger to History: A Son’s Journey Through Islamic Lands” (2009). “Ram Rajya, or the mythical rule of the hero Ram in the Hindu epic ‘Ramayana’ (seventh century B.C.-third century A.D.), like all visions of perfection, contains a built-in violence.”

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The Myth of Invisibility

“Invisibility bears power and powerlessness at the same time,” says Okri. “In ancient cultures, it was a gift of the gods. Jesus, for example, walks unrecognized among his disciples, and in Greek myths, Scandinavian legends and ancient African tales, heroes are gifted invisibility in the form of cloaks, sandals or spells. Modern works like the two ‘Invisible Man’ novels, by H.G. Wells (1897) and Ralph Ellison (1952), and the ‘Harry Potter’ novels (1997-2007) by J.K. Rowling reach back to those ideas. But today, people talk about visibility as the highest form of social agency, while invisibility can render a whole class, race, caste or gender unseen.”

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The Myth of Steadiness vs. Speed

Charles Henry Bennett’s illustration “The Hare and the Tortoise” (1857). Alamy

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“‘The Tortoise and the Hare,’ one of Aesop’s fables (sixth century B.C.), doesn’t necessarily strike a younger person as promising — possibly it has a whiff of morality in it,” says Yiyun Li, 53, the author of “A Thousand Years of Good Prayers” (2005) and “Dear Friend, From My Life I Write to You in Your Life” (2017). “But the longer I live and work, the more I understand that it’s the tortoiseness in a person that carries one along, not the swiftness of the mind and body of the hare.”

The Myth of Magic

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“Ancient magical tales like Homer’s ‘Odyssey’ (late eighth to early seventh century B.C.) were allegories of transformation, of secret teachings,” says Okri, “whereas modern forms of magic are narrative devices and tropes of storytelling that continue the child’s wonder of life. I think of F. Scott Fitzgerald’s ‘The Great Gatsby’ (1925), Gabriel García Márquez’s ‘One Hundred Years of Solitude’ (1967) and, again, the ‘Harry Potter’ books. The intuition of magic persists even in these atheistic and science-infested times, where nothing is to be believed if it can’t be subjected to analysis. This is perhaps because the ultimate magic confronts us every day in the mystery of consciousness. That we can see anything is magical; that we experience love is magical; and perhaps the most magical thing of all is the imagination’s unending power to alter the contents and coordinates of reality. It hides tenaciously in the act of reading, which is the most generative act of magic.”

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The Myth of the Immortal Soul

“ ‘The soul is birthless and eternal, imperishable and timeless and is not destroyed when the body is destroyed,’ says Krishna in the ‘Bhagavad Gita’ (second century-first century B.C.). This belief in the immortality of the soul — what used to be called Pythagoreanism in ancient Greece — is still the most pervasive myth in India,” says Taseer, “and has more influence over behavior and how one lives one’s life than any other.”

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